Medicine
blurs
my
brain
and makes me go still,
almost too still
like still water.
It burns my body
and the drugs become me.
I have
lost
myself
and what I used to know
because of you.
You tore me apart
and left
people
to put the unmatching pieces
together.
I am terrified
of becoming
older
and having no
recollection
or memories
of now.
I’ve screamed your name into the moonlight
and begged
for the past self
you have taken
from my crippling hands.
You taught me how to love dreadfully
and left me with nothing to grip onto.
My mind disintegrates
into the void
I have created
for myself
to protect myself
from the voices
that haunt
me.
Anthology of Eleos 